The Big Win, Season Finale
Being right is only the beginning
🎧 F1 by Hans Zimmer at low volume on loop.
Mark Cuban says it only takes one big win to change your life. He’s right. But I’d add something he didn’t. A big win changes your life, it doesn’t make it.
My win came from conviction.
People throw the word around like it means certainty, or volume, or how hard you’re willing to defend yourself. It means none of those things. Conviction is what’s left after you’ve made every honest argument against yourself and still can’t look away from what you see.
It is heavy. It is often lonely. And it is the only thing that holds when everyone around you is certain you’re wrong.
By the summer of 2019, the scoreboard said one thing and the game said another. I had spent my whole life learning to tell the difference, and the gap between them had never been wider.
My models were telling me something the media wasn’t. The fundamentals were improving, production was scaling, the cost curve was bending. The Model 3 ramp was accelerating past every timeline consensus had set. But the narrative hadn’t moved. The stock was priced for failure. Every headline framed the company as a reckless bet, its CEO as unstable, its ambitions as delusional. The institutional voices — the networks, the analysts, the legacy auto industry — were louder than they had ever been.
I couldn’t look away. It was time.
My parents worked for everything. My father is an engineer, now retired, who trades. Passionate about markets, experienced in the mechanics, with a deep feel for price action that would prove crucial later. My mother has a career of her own, but she grew up with almost nothing. Her father passed young, and she spent her childhood moving between houses that were never hers.
It left her with a discipline that bordered on devotion. Every dollar accounted for, every surplus set aside, year after year, while the world around her spent freely. She is the kind of steady, quiet force that most people never see and nothing works without. Together, the life savings they’d built represented decades of work, sacrifice, and restraint.
They are not people who take risks like this.
They had already broken that rule once. Two years earlier, they had put half of those savings into a startup I was building. An app called uDown that I believed would change how people connected. It wasn't another feed. It merged your group chats around real plans, so your friends could better meet one another. I hired a team, flew to India, spent two years building it with one of my closest friends. It left us exhausted, with a product that worked but wasn't ready yet and a future that was unclear.
The investment had not yet produced a return.
This is important. Because what I was about to ask them wasn't just a financial decision. They were being asked to trust the same person whose last vision was unfinished.
I called them and told them to finance the cheapest Model 3 available, the standard range, whatever they could afford. I needed them to experience the product before I could ask them to believe in the company.
What I was planning was going to require more than spreadsheets. It was going to require faith.
When I came back to the States, I met my parents in Cupertino, where my uncle took us around in one of the first Model Xs off the line.
I’d gone from dust and broken air conditioners to sitting inside my own imagination.
As we traveled back home to New Jersey, I started a conversation that would alter the trajectory of our family.
I told them to invest everything they had into Tesla Motors.
This was the summer of 2019. The stock was trading around sixteen dollars a share in today’s terms.
I told them this moment would not last forever. That we were standing at the gates of the same kind of opportunity that had passed by before with Apple, with Amazon, with Google.
That this might be our only chance to walk through.
They said no.
Of course they said no. And the thoughts that told them no were not irrational.
Everything into one stock? What if you’re wrong? Your startup hasn’t worked yet. The experts say Tesla is overvalued. This is our life savings, everything we have spent a lifetime building.
Every one of those thoughts was what I call a fly — a limiting belief that buzzes so persistently it starts to sound like your own common sense. Most people never notice them. They just assume the thought is theirs. Each of my parents’ flies was reasonable, the kind that protects you from ruin ninety-nine percent of the time. The problem is that the one percent of the time they’re wrong is exactly where the big win lives.
Telling the difference between prudence and a limiting belief is the hardest skill in investing and in life.
What I needed was for them to see what I saw. The risk, at that moment, was as close to zero as a single stock can get. The talent extraordinary, the vision inevitable, the price a gift from a market too blinded by its own narrative.
I made PowerPoints. Extensive documents. Every medium I could think of to translate conviction into evidence. My parents said they would commit ten thousand dollars. I said no. And then I made the only argument that matters in a family.
do you trust me?
There are moments in a family where the conversation stops being about the subject and becomes about the relationship itself. Where the question underneath is: do you see me? do you believe in who I am becoming, even if the evidence isn’t there yet? That is the most vulnerable question a child can ask a parent, and the most consequential a parent can answer.
From their perspective, maybe I didn’t deserve that trust yet. My startup was still struggling. My track record was a vision that hadn’t materialized. But that wasn’t what they were betting on. They were betting on their son.
They said okay.
They put everything into Tesla.
Within months, the thesis started confirming itself.
Tesla posted a profit in Q3 of 2019. It was a surprise to every headline writer and every analyst who had built their coverage around the assumption that profitability was years away, if it ever came at all. My models had it happening that quarter or the next. Sporadic earnings would become consistent positive free cash flow. The earnings lever I had been waiting for clicked into place. The one that once turned would never turn back.
My father and brother had started watching the same independent analysts I followed, individual experts on YouTube and X doing the kind of rigorous, unfiltered reporting no network would ever air. And then they started bringing me what they found.
I came home one night while they were working through it. They rushed to tell me that the Model Y was coming sooner than expected, that since Tesla had cracked the Model 3 ramp, the Y would scale faster than the market was expecting. I knew this already. The shock was hearing it from them. They were now standing beside me, seeing the same gap, finding their own conviction.
That was when I knew the family could hold together through whatever came next.
Over the next six months, the stock appreciated four times from our entry. The gap was closing, and we were on the right side of it.
Then the world stopped.
Covid arrived in March of 2020 with the force of something no model could have predicted.
The stock market became a casualty of the most intense selling pressure in a generation. Tesla’s Fremont factory was being ordered to shut down. A closure that would have burned through reserves at exactly the wrong moment. The media pivoted overnight from cautious skepticism to full-blown apocalypse.
By then, uDown had real traction. Thousands of users and over a million messages sent on the platform. We had built something to get more people into the same room, the one thing you want to avoid in a pandemic. We had to shut down.
Tesla mattered now more than ever.
I remember the physicality of those weeks because they lived in my body before they lived in any chart. Every morning started at my father’s trading station, both of us scanning pre-market action, reading futures, gauging how much damage the day would bring before it began. Then downstairs to my mother, who was working from home and processing the swings in a completely different register. Not as data points but as the savings she had built over a lifetime evaporating on a screen she didn’t fully trust.
I would sit with her, translate what was happening into language that wasn’t market jargon, explain why I still believed, why the fundamentals underneath the panic were improving even as the price collapsed. Then back upstairs when the market opened and the real-time numbers started moving. Then back down again when her worry spiked. The house became a circuit I ran all day. Upstairs to the conviction, downstairs to the fear, holding both at the same time, trying to keep the family aligned on a thesis the entire world was screaming was wrong.
We dug deeper. Whatever I had personally, I put in. My parents found that twenty-five percent of another retirement account could be accessed for other investments. We put it into Tesla during a fifty-percent correction.
From the outside, this looked like recklessness compounding on recklessness. I could hear the thoughts arriving, some of them my own: what if this is the worst time? what if Covid lasts years? what if the factory closes and the reserves burn and everything collapses?
I felt the fear. I felt the volatility. But I also felt the math. An accommodative Fed. Lockdowns that would eventually lift. Fundamentals strengthening. The gap had never been wider. And the gap at its widest can be the gap at its most generous.
My conviction was the anchor, but my family held the line together.
Lockdowns lifted and the Fed’s zero percent interest rate policy began. Within ten months, the stock went from its Covid low to nine times our original entry.
Our lives had changed. In the way my mother no longer checked the savings account with the quiet anxiety she’d carried for thirty years. In the way my father looked at charts with the confidence of someone whose instincts had finally been proven right. We had done something together that most families never get the chance to do. We had seen the opportunity, trusted each other through the fear, and come out on the other side with a life that was fundamentally different from the one we’d had two years earlier.
The win was real. What it built for our family was real.
I felt unbeatable.
I should have felt something else entirely. I should have felt grateful.
There is a species of limiting belief that nobody warns you about because it doesn’t feel like a limitation. It feels like a reward.
I call them trophy flies. They are thoughts that arrive with sudden success. The ones that feel earned, justified, deserved.
You were right when everyone was wrong. You’ve made more in a year than most people make in a decade, maybe a lifetime. You’ve earned this.
Every one of those thoughts sounds like the voice of a winner. Every one of them is a fly dressed in a trophy’s clothing.
By early 2021, our position had grown to fifteen times our original entry. Our family’s net worth had crossed a threshold I had only imagined. And something in me shifted, not toward clarity, but away from it.
I made six hundred thousand dollars in a single month from options trades at the peak of the run. The long term felt so secure, the short term didn’t seem to require the same prudence.
I spent a third of it in three months. Another third went into reckless trades: part curiosity, part greed, and no discipline in between. My closest friends and I had all made good money trading, and we spent a hundred thousand dollars cumulatively on a month in Miami. Bottle service, penthouses, the full performance of a life I thought I’d earned.
My personal trading account, which should have compounded into something substantial, is a fraction of what it should be today.
The ego had taken the wheel. Not in the way that felt dangerous, in the way that felt natural. That’s what makes trophy flies so hard to swat. They don’t announce themselves as problems. They announce themselves as the logical conclusion of everything you got right.
One night, many months after Miami, I was out with one of my oldest friends. Someone I look up to, someone who carries more success with none of the noise. I got too drunk. I started throwing my phone and wallet out of the club. Saying things like I don’t need anything, I have everything, I can get it all back tomorrow. I don’t remember all of it. What I remember is waking up the next morning and not recognizing the person I’d been the night before.
How could I represent myself like that in front of someone I care about? How could I let money rearrange my character to this degree? The person I saw that morning wasn’t the kid who noticed the charts were going up and spent a decade learning why. He wasn’t the person who sat across from his parents and asked them to trust him. He was something money had built on top of that person, a costume that fit so well I’d forgotten I was wearing it.
I didn’t change my behavior immediately. The subconscious knew, but the habits didn’t follow. That’s how trophy flies work. You see them and you still can’t swat them, because the room they’ve built feels too good to leave.
Not every cage has bars. Some have bottle service.
What I didn’t understand yet is that trophy flies don’t just corrupt your character. They corrupt your instincts. The same recklessness that was burning through my personal account, the same ego that convinced me the money would always be there, was about to destroy my conviction.
By November of 2021, the position had climbed to twenty times our original entry. The numbers on the screen had stopped feeling like capital and started feeling like a hallucination.
And then my instincts, the ones buried underneath months of noise, broke through.
Every indicator I trusted was flashing overvalued. Not just Tesla. The entire tech market was inflated by the Fed’s zero interest rate policy, a tide of cheap money lifting everything past the point of reason. It was the same gap I had seen in 2019, inverted. The scoreboard was now running ahead of reality, and it was telling me to sell.
I told my parents we needed to get out. Take the win and re-enter at a better time.
They said no.
Two years earlier, I had begged them to buy and they’d resisted. Now I was telling them to sell, and they were the ones holding on. I had built that conviction in them. I never taught them when to let go.
I fought for it. I was sick with Covid, quarantined upstairs, arguing through raised voices across floors of the same house where the original conversation had happened at the kitchen table. The same family. A different argument entirely.
I pushed hard enough to get them to sell half.
And then, a month later, Tesla surged back to the same highs. The half we'd sold looked like a mistake. My parents had repeatedly made it clear they wanted back in.
I told you so. Look, it's back at the highs.
And my own greed — the same impulse behind the Miami spending and the reckless trades, the one I thought I could keep away from the decisions that mattered — whispered: maybe the run still has legs.
I folded. We bought back in.
The day we re-entered was the exact top. The highest price Tesla would touch for the next two and a half years.
The original analysis wasn’t wrong. I was. The person doing it had been compromised by months of trophy flies so thick he didn’t know they were in the room. The same ego that said I can get it all back tomorrow was the ego that said maybe the run still has legs. It was the same voice. It had just changed clothes.
That is the cost of trophy flies. Not the Miami money. Not the reckless trades. It’s that they blinded me at the moment it mattered most, and my family lives with the difference today. All eight figures of it.
Clarity and the returns were never separate. One produced the other.
I have come to terms with it. But it haunts me the way only a self-inflicted wound can. Not regret for the thesis, but for the version of myself who couldn't execute it.
One lapse at the top is the most expensive lapse there is; a clear mind holds the line.
What followed was eighteen months of a seventy-percent correction in Tesla.
Interest rates were being hiked. Of course high-multiple stocks were going to take a hit. I understood the mechanics. Understanding them didn’t make them easier to live through.
During the worst of the selloff, the noise came from everywhere. Family friends, people who had watched the rise from the outside, traditional investors by nature, made comments designed to sound casual but calibrated to push a button. So how’s that going? You know, this might be a good time to sell. Never know where things are headed. The luck card was played constantly. As if a decade of research and a thesis confirmed at every fundamental milestone were indistinguishable from a coin flip that happened to land right.
Luck is opportunity meeting timing. It sits inert until someone takes the risk to seize it.
Risk is how you find out who you are.
It puts you at the center of something you believe in and forces a story of becoming. Avoid it and you never find out who you are. Drown in it and you lose yourself. The work of a meaningful life is landing somewhere in between.
And risk isn’t confined to capital. It’s the social risk of launching something and no one using it. Of writing something and no one reading.
What I took from the correction was quieter than the win. Some things are only meant to be shared in confidence. Some convictions you can only understand from the inside. I learned that the impulse to argue back, to prove someone wrong, is arrogance looking for a way back in.
Restraint is a lesson in becoming.
One I'm still mastering.
We held. It recovered and went to higher highs. We never lost the investment, we lost an obvious chance to own far more shares.
When I look back at the full arc, from the summer of 2019 to today, what surprises me most isn’t the returns. It’s how little they solved.
At the peak, the money had finally arrived, and I was further from the person I wanted to be than at any point in my life.
The kid who used to watch technology evolve from his bedroom had become the man throwing his wallet across a club.
A decade to make him. A year to unmake him.
The correction did what the money never could. It demanded patience, it required restraint, it left long months with nothing to do but sit still and steady myself. Friends and family grounded me, my fiancée most of all.
But I didn’t arrive without scars.
The difference between where we are and where clarity would have taken us is a number I carry every day. I’ve made my peace with it. But peace and forgetting are not the same thing.
If I could go back to the day my parents said okay and tell myself one thing, it wouldn’t be about the stock. It would be this: the win is going to fill your room with flies you’ve never seen.
Ones that look like rewards, sound like confidence, and feel like the life you earned. Swat them with the same discipline that brought you here, or they will take from you. First the clarity. Then the opportunity the clarity was protecting.
I wish I'd understood this before it cost us what it did. I didn't. So I wrote it down, for whoever's standing where I stood, hearing flies they can't name yet, hoping they recognize the sound before it's too late.
Mark Cuban is right. You only have to be right once. But being right is only the beginning. Staying right, staying yourself while the world rearranges itself around you, is the part nobody tells you about.
And it is the part that matters most.
To my family reading this, you are amazing and I love you.
We’re just getting started.
This completes the first season of The Hive.
Thank you for reading 🐝
Season 2 begins on Sunday, July 26th at 6:30pm EST.
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